sorry...

Well, I've kinda had a set back in my weightloss. All 4 of us have had colds the past 3 weeks so all of my time and energy has been focused on taking care of my kids, husband and self. Sorry things are going so slowly here. I feel like I am in a lot more control of my eating habits now that I'm not counting calories, though.

Update

Things are going fine here. I'm still not feeling great about myself and I think it's because I'm still wearing maternity shirts on a regular basis. I think I'm gonna have to be brave and get rid of all my maternity clothes...even though that means I'll only have like 3 shirts. But it's like those people who have lost a lot of weight but keep all their old fat clothes just in case, ya know? Doesn't really do any good. I'm scared about taking this big step; a step that probably doesn't seem like much to anyone else.

Figuring myself out...again

It's funny how weight loss tricks work for me at some times and not at all other times. Like counting calories. Back in my single days I was counting calories and losing weight like crazy. But this time around I've discovered that counting calories has actually made me gain weight. During the day and seeing how much I've eaten and how much I can eat later on made me think, "Oh, well I'm doing great! A handful of chocolate chips won't hurt me." Five times a day later, I'm feeling awful about my choices and the weight keeps coming on. But for the last month I haven't counted calories and haven't gained any weight. I'm more conscious about not eating too much and have less chocolate cravings. Weird, right?!

So, my goal for the next few days is to just work out more. We got an exercise bike with our tax return this year and I want to try waking up early before any of the kids are awake and exercising for 20 minutes. I think this will be good for me to get some alone time and also I won't be trying to fit in exercising and showering in between Katy's naptimes and stuff.

Thanks for listening :)

Say it like it is...

...accept it, and move on. Ok, this is probably going to be the hardest post of this entire blog. It's really hard for me to share all this information with you. But, I figure if it's out in the open (making me a little embarrassed) I will be more willing to change it. So, here it is.

Date 3/1/2012
Weight 222 lbs
BMI 35.8
Chest 42"
Rt Arm 12"
Waist 47.5"
Hips 52.5"
Rt. Thigh 29"
Rt. Calf  17"

I'm accepting it...and trying to move on..I'm not gonna say too much here. I do have to say that, although you can't see it in this picture, I've always thought my calves were cute.